Well last night we had a little girls night out to dinner and drinks and getting our very own copy of Twilight. The dinner and drinks part was great. I have a bit of a headache this morning but nothing Ibuprofen can't cure. When I got home at 12:15 I had Jason watch it with me. I feel asleep off and on through the whole movie. That could have been the margaritta or corona that caused me to get so sleepy. :) But I got to see Edward. I will have to watch it again today just to see all of it again. It is actually better on the TV than the big screen. Jason said he liked it. I'll have to ask him this morning more about it. So YAY.

My party is Thursday so I'm super excited about that. I've got a lot to do before the big event. But most of the house is clean. All that's left is Conner's room, the office, our bedroom, and closet. Sounds like a lot but the main rooms are finished. We have a few things to hang and a few things in the garage to take to the dump.

Well I'm gonna go hang out with my little man until my big man wakes up and let's me go take a nap. :)

Yeah that was a long subject. :)

TONIGHT I found out that Conner is to the point now that I can't take him out to eat... well actually I can't take him ANYWHERE!

Yesterday we went to the mall and he threw a big fit and tossed himself back and forth and screamed and cried and yelled no the whole freakin' time we were there. Had to cut that visit short.

Then today he was ok in Hastings for a while and then he started throwing a fit and screaming... etc.

Then TONIGHT we had the bright idea that it would be ok to go out to eat. We went to Joe's Bistro for the first time. We wanted to try something new. GREAT IDEA *sarcasm* We got there and before we could even get him in the highchair he started yelling NO NO NO NO NO and kicking and screaming. So Jason held him for a few minutes until the got fussy. So then it got bad enough that we figured people in the restruant were getting frustrated at us (cause I know I was frustrated FOR SURE). So we let him walk outside and tried it again after he calmed down. That didn't last. We eventually just took turns going out to the car to sit with him until we paid and left. WHAT AN AWFUL EVENING! I couldn't even enjoy the food (which was okish) because it was just so darn awful.

So at what age did you finally realize that going out to eat for dinner was out of the question? Or are your children angels and perfect when you go out like my child USE to be.

OH and I forgot to mention that at one point during the evening of fits he threw a sugar packet along with a bit of a tomato and HIT A MAN IN THE HEAD!

Yeah it was a bad night out.

I feel like I need to let Conner explore more to his house than just the living room. I feel bad that I am only allowing him to play and be in the living room. He doesn't play in his room because it isn't baby proofed. Sounds silly but there are things that he could climb on and get hurt and other things, like his fan that I have to move every time I even think about letting him down in his room. The kitchen constantly has things on the floor, trashcan that has to be moved, and chairs that get knocked over any time he gets down into the kitchen. Our bedroom is just beyond childproofing at this time with clothes, little cables, and odds and ends all over the place.

I really want to get my WHOLE house baby proofed enough for him to explore every inch of it. But it just seems impossible.

How do you deal with your children getting into everything (Jessica I'm sure you have issues... I saw a picture today that proved that!).

I just want my house to be safe and I'm tired to restricting him and not allowing him to explore.

The one time he escaped from the living room I turned around to find him in the bathroom in the tub playing. SCARED ME TO DEATH!

I think it is time for me to just dig this house out (again... it never ends) and let him have exploration time.

Maybe I will just open up the gate and let him walk around and baby proof behind him. :)

Oh and I can't remember if I've posted lately about him being sick... I think I did. Turns out that the rash he had turned into hives so now he is on another steroid medicine to get rid of that. It never ends. I'm sure that once he get's better completely he will get sick again.

You need to learn about power teaching! I've been doing this with my class this week and last week and it is AMAZING! It really gets the kids engaged in what you are doing and it is fun. :) Here are a few of my favorite videos!

It has been a lot longer for me to post than usual. MAybe I haven't posted in a while because 1. school has started, 2. Conner has been sick, and 3. I'm sick. THat pretty much sums up the past couple of weeks. (I've had a couple glasses of wine or more so excusse the mis-spelling and slerd typing). :)

Poor Conner is over his ear infections (so it seems) and he is on his 3rd round of antibiotics which seemed to have done the trick. But the poor little guy still has this rash that he has had ever since he's been sick. It started out on his back and moved to all over his body. The doctors seem to think it is fine and it will just go away. I sure hope it goes away soon. It started out where you couldn't feel it and now it is so hard and rough on his legs and arms. It's gone away almost everywhere else. He just looks awful. He doesn't seem to mind it so I know that at least it is not itchy.

I'm sick now. I'm feeling crappy with a runny nose, sore throat, and my ears are starting to hurt because of all the drainage. I'm feeling better now that I prescribed a few glasses of wine to myself. :) My nose doesn't seem to bother me much anymore, it's my eyes that aren't working anymore (that's more than likely the wine). :)

In other news, I think I've got myself a pretty good class this year. The kids seem nice and cute, which helps when they mis-behave.

Well this is too much thinking for one night. I hope everyone out here is doing well. I wish I had more time to read everyone's posts and reply but just know that I love ya! (probably the wine once again doing the talking).

Good night.
'Oh! One more thing, working out is not going so well. I haven't gained anymore weight back (I'm down to 188-189) but I just can't seem to find enough energy now that school has started to workout. I need to get back to the gym. Why do I feel so damn guilty to pick Conner up from Daycare and take him to another daycare. I just feel like I don't get to spend enough time with him and then dropping him off from one place to the next just doesn't feel right. I need to get back out to the gym and start working out!!! I will make a goal that this week I'm going to go to the gym just once. Then next week I can move up to 2 times and so forth and so on. I just feel so guilty leaving my little guy all the time.

Conner started whistling a few weeks ago. I finally got around to getting video of him whistling. :) How funny is it that a 13 month/14 month old can whistle. Here's a video.

OK today is my Friday weigh in day! Last week I didn't lose any (or so the scale said I didn't). So this week I worked my butt off and really watched what I ate. I walked for at least an hour every day and got on the elliptical between 15-20 minutes a day. I also lifted weights a few times last week. While I watched TV at night I worked on my abs and legs. :) So the results are in.....

I'm down 5 pounds this week!!!!! I weigh 190.0! :)

So that brings my total weight loss up to 11.5 pounds in 5 weeks. WOOHOO!

Here he is doing a little dance, walking, and talking. :) He's 13 months (almost 14 months) old.

I went walking tonight and had some time to think... "why the hell am I walking on the 4th of July?" Why did I ask that? Because I am terrified of fireworks. I can't even do a sparkler without freaking out that I'm going to get burned or set something on fire. I've always been scared of fireworks. So as I'm walking I'm dodging roman candles and other scary fire toys that seem to be headed my way. I was even stopped by someone who asked me if I was going to set off fireworks and I said OH NO (he probably thinks I was being unpatriotic or something)! I prefer to watch them from a safe distance a few miles away or from the couch on the TV. I guess it did help to put a little more pep to my step tonight when I went walking.

Today is Friday, which means it's weigh in day. I've done good not weighing myself every single day. :) So this morning I hopped on the scale to see 196.5. Down another 2 lbs. So that brings my total to 5 pounds. Now I only need to lose 16.5 pounds to reach my first goal of 180. So I gotta keep up the hard work of eating good and working out. I'm gonna push myself a little harder this week. :)

This August I will celebrate my 5th year anniversary. I need ideas of what we should do or where we should go? I need to go ahead and plan something to get him because I am such a procrastinator. So help! Give me your thoughts!

Last night I went walking and ended up walking probably 3-4 miles. After my knee and hip stopped hurting I felt like I could just keep going. It was nice outside too.

This morning Jason and I were up by 7am and by 8am we were out in the yard edging. I helped some. Then at 11am I took Conner for a walk. He fell asleep after one time around the block so I put him in his crib for a nap and went back out for another hour or so. I ended up walking for about 4 miles. It felt so good.

Now I'm super red. I mean SUPER red. I haven't been this burnt in a while. My shoulders feel so hot and I hate when I get goose bumps. OUCH!

I am super proud of myself because I'm well into week 2 of this diet... let's see I started on the 19th. So I'm on day 11. I feel great. I'm eating well and still writing down everything I'm eating. I give everyone around me grief on what they are eating (hamburgers, icecream, bad stuff) and I look up online how many calories and fat grams are in what they are eating. :) I'm sure Jason and his dad are getting tired of hearing about it.

Mom said that she is trying to watch what she eats because of me. I went over to her neighborhood last week 2 times and walked with her. Her neighborhood is much better to walk in because there are so many streets!

Tomorrow I'm going to strollerfit for the first time.  I feel like since I've been walking and am not super sore anymore that I can try this.  I really want to join a gym and just might do that.  I need to do more.  Walking just isn't going to get all the weight off that I need to get off.

After strollerfit I'm staying with a group of mom's (moxie mamas) and letting our kids play in the park.  I'm going to bring Conner's walker because he seems  to really enjoy walking with that until he gets to where he wants to be.  :)

Well I didn't plan on writting this much.  So I will stop now and go back to playing with Conner.  Looks like it is about time for me to give him a bath. 

OH!  Here's a question- HOW DO YOU KEEP YOUR CHILD FROM STANDING IN THE TUB?  I'm so sick of saying sit down over and over and sitting him back down.  Do you have anything on the bottom of your tub so your child doesn't slip slide all around?  Do you have something over your faucet so they don't hit their head?

There has been quite a few times when I let Conner play in the living room and I go about my day until he needs me. Yesterday he decided to knock over his slide and play in it. Today he decided to get in his toybox to play. :) It is so funny going into the living room to find him in odd places. So of course I ran to get the camera.






Look at that little foot sticking up.  :)


OK I've had enough, get me out of here.

I wasn't going to post until tomorrow but I will go ahead and post today. The reason- because I am motivated to lose weight. I started my diet this week. Today is officially 1 week since I started. I have done so good this time. I hate how I post and post and talk about how I need to lose weight and then I do it for maybe a few days and then go back to my old ways. Well not this time buddy.

I'm super motivated to get all this extra weight off of me. I'm so tired of not feeling happy about how I look. I'm so tired of not wanting to shop because I can't shop in every store and find my size easily. I hate feeling like everyone is looking at me when I go into a store that doesn't carry size 18. I'm just so ready to feel great about myself and have more confidence.

So I didn't want to post anything about it until I had my first true weigh in. I am trying not to weigh myself but once a week. So Friday's are my official weigh in days. So tomorrow will tell me if I have done good. I know I have. I sure wish it didn't take so long to lose weight. It is so easy to put on the weight but so hard to lose it.

I've worked out almost every day since I started (more than 45 minutes walking, 100 ab crunches, and lifting weights). I know it is only a week and that doesn't sound like a lot but it has been the longest week. I've had to read the labels of everything I eat. I've had to order something I really didn't want to order because it was the lowest thing in fat grams and calories. I cooked last night, one of my favorite meals, and I didn't eat the cheese and sauce on my chicken because it would add too many fat grams.

I started taking Alli and I really think (even if it was a placebo and didn't do anything) that it is helping me to keep my fat grams per meal under 15 grams. If I go over 15 grams a meal there is a good chance that I will pay for that by going to the bathroom... or not making it to the bathroom. So this is great. It really forces me to stay within the aloud amount of fat grams per meal.

I've eaten between 1000-1300 calories per day. That is like eating barely nothing. I feel better. I went to the store and bought me healthy cereal and healthy snack bars and they are actually very good.

I started my diet weighing 201.5 pounds. I will say that I weighed myself this morning and I was at 196.5. Which means that I've lost 5 pounds. I don't think that is really what I've lost.... we will see in the morning on my weigh in day.

I'm so ready to shock everyone when I go back to work in the fall. If I lose like 10 pounds or more a month I could lose maybe like 20 pounds or more before going back to work. That would put me down below my pre-pregnancy weight. I would be like 180. I think that would put me down size too. Maybe I could get down to a 14-16 before school starts.

I know this is going to be a long process. In previous diets I just wanted an easy fix. I just wanted to lose weight quickly. I wish I could lose 5 pounds a week for sure but I don't think that's going to happen. Maybe this week, just because of all the change.

I found a great place for support too. www.dailystrength.org. I'm currently in a challenge to lose 10 pounds in 5 weeks. I think I will have that beat in 3 weeks if I keep it up as good as I'm doing.

I love walking now because I love when I sweat and I tell myself over and over that I'm gonna look good again, I'm gonna feel sexy again, I can do it! I just keep telling myself that over and over and it helps me walk a little bit farther.

So I've done good for my first week. I am doing this for myself. I just need to get the real me that is burried under this fat, back out. I CAN DO IT AND I WILL DO IT!

My ultimate goal weight is 145. That's going to take some time and dedication.

Well Conner took his first steps tonight. We were all sitting in the living room watching his (as we always do). He was holding onto a chair trying to reach his toy when he decided to let go of the chair and take 2 good steps. We were so excited. Then later he was holding onto the couch and was trying to reach his toy out in the middle of the room when he let go and took a good 3-4 steps. We were all silent when it was happening just watching him walk. When he stopped and sat down with his toy we all screamed and cheered. YAY CONNER! :)

Then we decided that his hair was just growing too much in certain areas. So we cut off a little of his hair. Then in the bath I trimmed up his bangs and the hair growing over his ears. After some more work I think I got it to look ok. :) It is amazing what a little cut will do. He looks like a different person.

EDIT: I forgot to mention that Conner is down to only nursing once a day. So it seems our nursing has come to an end. I am kinda sad about that but kinda not. It is nice to be able to leave and not worry about how much milk I've pumped. I think by the end of next week we will probably be completely done. I'm proud of how long we have gone. I try to nursing him during the day but he doesn't want any part of it. He just squeezes it or pinches or bites my boobs and laughs. So goodby breastfeeding.

Oh and I think I have something. I get up to pee 2-3 times a night, I am constantly hungry, I constantly need a drink, and I have dry mouth. I'm scared that I might have diabetes. I am going to start taking better care of myself. I have got to lose weight!

Well that's all for today. What a great Father's day. :)

Well I'm sleepy from all the excitement from Conner's birthday party and the last day of school. So this little post will be short. Conner's party went well. He went straight for the cake. There was no need to show him how to do it. He had so much fun digging into his cake. The cake was perfect. So much icing on top! So here are the pictures, they tell the story good enough. :)

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=53770&id=511750254

I finally found my card reader for my camera and got some pictures and video onto my computer. :) I have many others but I thought I would stick to a few to make you laugh.

I got Conner some teething biscuits (these) and WOW they sure do make a mess. :) So here is Conner after managing to get it all over himself!







Here is a video of Conner when I made him laugh real good. He had just pooped and it was stinky. He thought me telling him that he was stinky was the funniest thing. :)

Well we finally ordered Conner a big boy car seat. It should be here in the next week or 2. Here's what we got for those of you who are interested. :)

Clicky Clicky

That's all.  I'm super excited. 

I just have to post a quick one because this is too cute. Tonight Conner was playing, I was on my computer, and Jason was watching Star Trek. Conner crawled himself and a book over to Jason and stood up giving the book to Jason. OMG! How sweet. So Jason paused Star Trek and read the book with a very interested Conner. Earlier when I was playing with Conner he brought me the book and I read it to him. What a good boy.